Port haunting me

Seems like I say this a lot -- it has been a rough few days. The port came out on Wednesday. While it feels better, it still hurts. The tissue where the port was is not good. The port was implanted in a pocket like place below my right collar bone. While there is no longer a tube going to my neck, they have had to pack the "pocket area" with about 3 feet of gauze. This is an area about 1" x 2". Every day Bob now has to pull out about an inch of it (using all sorts of surgical equiptment - he is now officially a Dr) and cut it off. That will go on for a month at least. I go in to see the Interventional Radiologist (who has "never seen anything like this") for him to check it. Also, they are bringing in a Plastic Surgeon to see if anything else needs to be done. (Do I have a list for him!) That kind of flipped me out a little, and I have had a couple of mini melt downs over that. I just can't seem to do anything easily. These side complications just continue to happen. I know in the great scheme of things they are nothing, but I was just not prepared for them and my emotions were a little raw to say the least. I am settling back down. I was running fever too, and my white count was still low yesterday at 1.8. I am sleeping more (better drugs) so that is good.

I know a lot of you were worried because I had not blogged since Tuesday, but I just did not have the energy. I appreciate all your love, caring and concern.